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Ok, well right now I wanna write something down because I'm really pissed off right now. Ok, so anyways, I'm really excited about getting my report card today in 2nd period. When I got it I saw that I did a pretty good job in all of my classes and then I see a 84 in freaking PE. I am so freaking pissed because I just think it's freaking ridcolous! I dress out every day and the only day that I didn't dress out was when we got back from spring break because I forgot my shorts. Ugh, and I try to talk to the coach and he makes it seem like I'm the one who made the mistake. He told me I must've not dressed out at least four or five days. Please, everyone knows I'm asways dressing out and it makes me sick for him to put the blame on me. I just don't know what to do because I freaking try hard at everything and now it's like no matter what I do in this stupid ass class that my grade won't be what I deserve. Man, I swear!!! It's just making me pissed and I'm trying to let out my anger in a good way. Anyways, umm, my current GPA is 9.14 on a 9 scale, would've been 9.80something had I gotten the grade that I deserved in PE. I got an 86 in English Dual (college credit class), 93 in AP Calculus, 81 in AP Psychology, 100 in nutrion food science, and 100 in PALS. How our thing works is if you get acertain grade in regulars/honors-dual/AP you get a certain number of grade points because making a B in an AP class is a lot hardder than making an A in regulars.For instance, I got an 84 in PE so that's a freaking 5!!! The 81 in AP Psychology is 10 grade points. So you can see how that 5 brings down mygpa. To get an idea of the gradepoints, 8-English, 14-Calculus, 10- Psychology, 5-PE, 9-PALS, 9-Nutrition Those are the gradpoints that I got and you just average it out to get my currentGPA. My acumlative GPA is 7.65 which transfers to a 4.36 on a 4.0 scale. I think it's stupid that it goes above a 4.0. I think it should be less than a 4.0 but that's how our wierd school has it. Ok, well I think I let a lot of that anger out some...just had to write it down somewhere. I told people about it and they're like, "Are you serious?" but the coach obviously doesn't realize that I dress out. Well I don't know, I'm thinking about talking to my counselor but I don't want to make a big deal out of something that's somewhat pretty small. Yeah, I think I desever a higher grade but how could I prove that I dressed out those certain days. Anyways, yeah, that's all I'm gonna write right now so I'll talk to all of ya'll later I guess. Take care!!! Leave comments to know that someone's actually reading these things :D Lataz!!!!!!!!!

-Marty ;)

房子和车

老公昨天因为想换新车的事和我闹别扭，我很是不理解。为什么男人就这么喜欢车呢？

前天去看了车展。那个繁荣景象，我已经多年没见过了。人多拥挤不说，道路不通，停车不便。。。不知道当时挤在人群中的老外怎么想？中国人真的消费得起这些高档车了吗？作为金牛座的我，实在是不能赞同很多人（包括老公）在还没有财务自由之前就去消费汽车。这可是个十足的消耗品。坐地打八折不说，光一年的养路费，保险，保养，维修，汽油费就是不小的开销。这可比打车贵多了。可是，男人的回答往往是：车子给了我自由的空间，我们的活动范围一下子变大了很多。说的对，可是。。。

我喜欢房子超过车子。房子可能升值，可以自住，可以出租。自住给了家庭安全感，出租带来了现金流。典型的资产呀！当然男人也会需要房子，但是，他们内心深处对房子的关注度远不如对拥有名车的热情高。他们更愿意开车去兜风，而不是守在房子里。

从这点看，似乎可以看出为什么男人更关注自我价值实现，而女人更看重家庭的原因。金牛座的女人好可怜！从不乱花钱，精心理财，还要为老公买车。。。阳阳也是金牛座，她会和我一样吗？

I expect respect, kindness, consideration and alot of other lost virtues of this day and age. I guess I am what you would call a real dreamer...that's me always thinking and/or hoping that others would treat me the same as I treat them. Too bad, in my experience that has never happened.

So in all actuality, I guess I really do not expect much from others these days. My resolve has been broken by those around me. Well not anymore, you see I have recently relocated and things have not really changed. That is because I have not changed.

Tried to start a new relationship without really being ready for one. One mistake ater another, that's me.

Let's see what do I expect of others? I expect that at the first opportunity they will sell me down the river, say mean and hurtful things and out right lie.

I expect that the human race has no chance for redemption, that the criminals have more rights than the average tax paying citizen and food will be so contaminated that even the rich will find it difficult to eat something decent.

Any thoughts?